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Post by Snowglobe18 on Sept 21, 2011 22:38:17 GMT -7
21st September 2011 Flick said I should start a journal. Why I have no idea. So I guess here goes. School sucked ass today. It was just one bad thing after another, first my homework wasn’t right. Then I gave the wrong answer on a test. Sometimes I just want to scream and hide away from all of it, but I won’t. Good news. Flick came home today. That’s when she gave me the journal and told me to start writing it, so that someone could find it and know the real me. Riiiightt, she just wants to be nosy and read everything that I write. Even though I filled her in with everything. I told her my secret. I’ve been waiting to tell someone for the last couple of days. I just didn’t know who to turn to. I did want to tell my mom but I know she would probably freak out. Jess and James are engaged. It’s cute really. Second wedding. Even though they don’t have to get married yet. I decided that I was going to go back to Jake’s place. Even though technically it is my place too now. It feels weird to be nearly 17 years old and actually living with my boyfriend. Even if he does get me frustrated sometimes. Jess, James and Jake are downstairs right now, I can hear them laughing at whatever movie they’re watching. They told me to join them, but I really don’t feel up to it. So I decided to take a shower and actually sit in the window, listening to some music. Jake is so sweet on how he treats me. He told me I was perfect today. It made me want to cry. All the damn tiredness making me feel like this. This probably seems like a sucky post but I don’t really know what to say in here. I can’t really say to much just incase someone, who I don’t want to, finds it. Even if I doubt Jake will actually read it.. Then again maybe he will, just to be nosy like Flick. Or to see if there was anything about him in, here. And as you can see. There is. Hopefully School will be different tomorrow, now that I have Flick. Sure I had Kristen, but I felt like I couldn’t talk to her because she is my family, I need someone outside to talk to. I have too much running through my head right now and I wish It would stop. I want to talk to Jake about it, but I can’t. Not yet. I love him, I really do. I shouted at him this morning. It wasn’t his fault at all, but I was in such a bad mood that I just snapped and took it out on him. I have a lot to apologise for. Maybe I could buy him some pie and apologise that way. Jake loves pie. Anyway. I’m going to crash. I need some sleep. Got school later and it’s after midnight. Great. Goodnight <3
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Post by Snowglobe18 on Sept 26, 2011 15:25:02 GMT -7
26th September ‘11 I haven’t written in here for a few days. I’ve been busy. School and stuff. Plus at the moment I’m sick. So I’m home all day. Jake keeps checking up on me. Interrupting my sleep to bring me food. I love him, but I just can’t eat at the moment. I told my mom my secret, how I might not want to go to College. She wasn’t very happy at all. We got into an argument and wasn’t very nice at all, It made me cry, but it’s my life right? I’m not sure Jake will be happy about it either. I see him struggling sometimes. I know he wants to go to College, I just feel like I’m keeping him back, even if he said I ain’t. I can’t help but think it’s my fault that he’s still in Corpus Christi. I worry about my mom. Sometimes she has this distant look in her eyes, like she’s not here all the time. I often wonder where she goes when she’s thinking. Is it about my dad? Or Chris? If I’m honest, I envy James sometimes, he knew our dad. Knew what he was like, I didn’t and neither did Jace. Am I like him at all? Or do I take after my mom? If I could have one wish, it would be to meet my dad. To see how my mom and dad were like before I was born. I know she’s still in love with my dad, I want that powerful kind of love. Something that will never die, no matter how long you’re apart from the person you love. This post is actually kind of crappy this time. Anyway back to business. I’m practically sleeping all the time right now. This bug is actually kicking my ass. I’m actually weaker than I make out to be. Is something really wrong with me? Am I ill-er than the Doctor said I was? I think I’m freaking myself out, I need to stop thinking about this. Stupid thoughts. I probably have loads of stuff to catch up on. I still have to tell Jake about my other secret. I want to tell him about the whole hunting side of my family, but I’m scared that he will think I’m crazy and will dump me. James told Jess and she seems to be fine with it. But then again, everyone is different. Speaking of hunting, I generally don’t think we’re safe here in CC. A demon has already tried to get to my mom. I know it will never be over, but I at least thought that what my dad had done would at least keep us safe for a while. I guess it wasn’t long enough to actually have some sort of normal life, even if my mom doesn’t hunt anymore and is a working mom rather than a hunting mom. Not that I would know what that looks like because thankfully my dad put my mom into a semi-normal life. Ryan is getting to married to Vikki in December but won’t say when the date actually is. I really can’t wait! I think Chris is still in shock over the fact his cousin is actually getting married, but at least Ryan is giving Kristen a normal family. After all, she’s only known her mom and Grandparents. Like I’ve only known my mom and brothers. Anyway I think I’m going to get some more sleep. I feel pretty crappy again. Later <3
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Post by Snowglobe18 on Oct 9, 2011 9:58:09 GMT -7
8th October ‘11 My cousin stayed with my mom for a couple of weeks and she brought Thomas with her and he is so cute! Me and Jake babysat him a couple of times. He definitely took to Jake very well. It was cute, like Jake had a mini version of him. I really need to get a job. I said that to Jace and he said about going to work at The Grill. Most of my family works there, I don’t think they would want another Hane there. Plus Jake’s there to. I don’t think he would want to live with me and work with me. That would be seeing each other too much. I’m actually sat writing this in the The Grill. I swear this is the only place to hang out in Corpus Christi! No lie either. James is home again this weekend. It means he’s staying at mom’s. Although I thought he might’ve stayed with Jess, seeing as they are engaged. So cute! I really want to do something awesome this weekend! Something that is very dangerous to because then it would be a rush. I’ll see if Flick wants to go and do something and get some other people to. Jake is working, like usual, so I doubt if he will be able to come with us. I found out that mom and Chris are dating. So exciting. She sounds really happy and that’s a good thing. Especially because she deserves it! Jake keeps singing Cherry Pie at me. I swear he thinks I’m a hooker. I hit him with a pillow yesterday. I think this entry is going to be short today as I really don’t have anything to say. I’ve just been busy with School, which isn’t very fun at all. Anyway, I’ll write later. Maybe.
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